Something in the trees had reminded me that I always felt like I was silently screaming back then in a way ordinary people couldn't hear.
Those screams seem to have not stayed with me, but with that place. When I go back there I hear them through my attachment to it even
though I have become one of those ordinary people.
When I remember being that person and being in that situation, my life is easy to appreciate. It is the gift of then.
The effect of standing there so many years later was to look at myself and realize.... I did it. I had survived, escaped and defined myself. I
have achieved something mundane and ordinary, but extraordinary to the kid back then.